Carrie & Bigg Times

What can I say...I miss 'em like shit (lmao). Today's one of those days where I'm going over everything we went through and wondering about the what ifs. What if this and what if that. Remembering all the precious moments...The first day we met...It was something about you, I don't know what though. I told my cousin I didn't know what it was but that night couldn't erase your face or your voice from my memory. I had someone, sorta, and with a week of conversation they were no longer holding my attention (that guy hates me now, Thanks Ahryn lol). Our first kiss...So flirtatious, nervous, & mischievous...It was a game, my game. A game I played for almost 2 years and I had the better hand or so I thought. My drastic hair changes lol. I was natural when we met...colored it soon after...and drastically cut it soon after that. The many nicknames you came up with...My favorite, booface. The gifts we bought for one another...A necklace for me that I can't seem to look at let alone wear now...And a bracelet for you that's inscribed with Property of Kayana lol...Rings you talked about buying and one I thought about buying (still think about it). The many visits to be in your presence...Your gift to cheer you up when you were incredibly sad (1 surprise visit from me for a week)...Our summer of laughter, fun, fighting, and intimate moments...Our two week living together experience...I thought we would get sick of each other but no we spent enough time apart and you loved to leave and come home to me being there sleep on your side of the bed lol. Date nights...going out or staying in watching movies and eating Pizza Hut. Nights out with the homies (I'm the only girl) and you still held my hand and kissed my forehead like your friends weren't there. So many times & memories we shared. We were best friends & significant others...the line between the two was never very clear...we were who/what we needed to be when/where we needed to be it. That's what I loved...always had anything we needed in the other person. Never having to look else where for anything. Ups & downs but in the end I'm here missing him like I never left...and loving him like I always have (with the intention of never stopping).