The First of the Month

So a lot has been up. I went home for a week that's why I have been MIA from here lol. Start with the good stuff: I had so much fun at home tho. I hung out with my family all week. I actually miss the hood, but not the always being paranoid and lookin' over my shoulder that I do. If anyone knows my family they know that they have issues. So of course getting together everyday for 7 days straight, the pent up feelings came out and we crossed bridges with each other (something they should have worked out years ago) and a few issues were ironed out. I went to Canada with my Mommie and auntie Life. We had so much fun (drinking and gambling). I hung out with my best friend Tony (who I rarely hang out with let alone see), Reka, Darnell, & Otis. I saw my sis Rhiannon and Gerald. Overall I enjoyed myself. For a little while I thought that maybe I would move back home but no I won't. On to the negative: My best friend is pissed at me because I hung out with his boys (my friends too) without him. I invited everyone tho. He didn't bother to ask me what happened he just up and assumed some shit. Then when I tried to explain to him that he had it all wrong he goes on to verbally attack me (I was dumb and every synonym for the word). So here I am fresh off vacation with a fuckin' attitude. Not a good way to come to inconsiderate people as roommates. I'm trying to take a breather but I think I might need a drink! *SIGHS*

On another note: The one thing about going home that's truly hard is the temptation to be a "bad" girl. It always happens. Either temptation is knocking at my door or I'm running up to it's door knocking then running away lol, a sick game I play just to test my limits or test how firm I am in what I say I want/don't want. Example: Guy I used to go out with, I always go looking for him knowing that what he wants I won't give him, then I find him and test him and his limits lol. Or flirting with my brother's friend knowing that my loyalty to Bigg and the fact that he (my brother's friend) and I don't want the same type of relationship won't allow me to pursue anything with him. Call me crazy but I love and hate the temptation at the same time.