I have something that's been heavy on my heart the past few months. I finally found time to blog about it, in the hopes that I am freed from the ill feelings I haven't been able to shake. So I have this guy friend and we have a very close bond. So close that I'm his best friend. I love him dearly. I accept him and his doings without passing judgment against him or his decisions. But for the past year & 11 months he has been so judgmental and just opinionated about my choice of significant other. Now I never ask for understanding of my relationship because most times only the people in the relationship are fully capable of understanding it. But is it to much to ask that a person respect you and your choice of whom to pursue a relationship with. Now I must say that he and I dated for a few months three years ago but it didn't work out (my fuck up; I was in the wrong and he chose to let it all go). All was good we were really good friends I didn't hold anything against him for not giving me another chance, I just got over it and moved on. He has had more opportunity than anyone to mend a past relationship with me but now that I'm happy he decides to be all jealous and take it all very hard. Now this is all ok, you can't deal with your emotions and what not, it happens. But for a person to totally disrespect their "friend" by insulting them with name calling and insulting their ability to basically take care of themselves emotionally, just makes me wanna be like "Nigga please!" and I don't even use that word loosely! Like said earlier I never ask for understanding, just RESPECT, simple. Apparently not. I'm just so frustrated. I have known this friend for something like EIGHT YEARS! How can you just let go of an eight year bond. Man I know what I have to do: just let it go and when he gets over the bullshit and respect my decesions welcome him back in my life. But how do you not call when you wanna talk or just laugh about old times and being stupid teenagers turned mature young adults? So far I have been good about just ending conversations that start going toward my relationship in a negative way. Because I refuse to defend my choice to love someone and recieve their love in return! I'm so loved even if I am the only one it's visible to. And I'm happy! With that said I'm done venting and I am going to end on a better/neutral note. A.J you always have a friend in me...So long :-/
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Friday, September 12, 2008
I won't say goodbye...But so long A.J
Posted by K.I.M at 12:47 PM
Labels: Sometimes the people we love aren't apart of our forever
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